0113 仍未眠，待在电脑前，听着蔡健雅的《陌生人》。
刚写完一篇散文。说是散文，又不像是散文。自己在文学方面其实是没才华的，算了，自己又给自己投篮了……扑哧，没看过吧，自己给自己投篮的人，哈哈……废话连篇
感恩。
其实真的很感谢父母的体谅，三番四次地在接近大考这种非常时期跑出去，你们还是耐着性子点头让我出去。说真的，我自己都觉得自己很过分，但是我还是会很坚持的告诉你们，我想去。想当初，还常常因为没得出席学记活动而闹情绪、发脾气，我知道很不好，但是，脑海里却拼命的想出席。没法，只好想尽办法。在此，对你们表示抱歉亦非常感谢你们的体谅，我保证我真的会尽全力去考好成绩。
对不起
谢谢你们
p/s：相信你们都不会看到这篇文章，想说却说不出口，只好在这里留下一点痕迹，我真的很感谢你们
I appreciate it.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
人生无常
先是有朋友车祸，伤势还蛮严重的，
然后就是朋友的妈妈被炸伤，于今早过世了……
今夜
眼泪不断留下
虽说我们不太熟悉对方
但毕竟曾同校过
又在同一个地方补习
听到你出车祸
伤势又好像很严重
为你感到担心
你知道吗
你再补习时常常“做笑”
然后全班都会笑个不停
今天
好像有点静
少了点东西
快点好起来
然后来补习
P/S：add math 很难，再不快点好起来，你就全部不会做了
小学毕业后
就不太常联络
平时只是靠facebook看看你的境况
然后这几天就发生了这样的事情
你们的心情
或许我无法理解
只能在这里说声
加油
一定要过得好好的
这样
她才能放心
你们还有一大班的朋友在身旁支持你们
aunty 安息
这一秒
你还在和他说笑
或许下一秒
你看到的就是冷冰冰的人
造化弄人
人生真的很无常
珍惜在身旁的人
关心他们
照顾他们
不然
后 悔 莫 及
然后就是朋友的妈妈被炸伤，于今早过世了……
今夜
眼泪不断留下
虽说我们不太熟悉对方
但毕竟曾同校过
又在同一个地方补习
听到你出车祸
伤势又好像很严重
为你感到担心
你知道吗
你再补习时常常“做笑”
然后全班都会笑个不停
今天
好像有点静
少了点东西
快点好起来
然后来补习
P/S：add math 很难，再不快点好起来，你就全部不会做了
小学毕业后
就不太常联络
平时只是靠facebook看看你的境况
然后这几天就发生了这样的事情
你们的心情
或许我无法理解
只能在这里说声
加油
一定要过得好好的
这样
她才能放心
你们还有一大班的朋友在身旁支持你们
aunty 安息
这一秒
你还在和他说笑
或许下一秒
你看到的就是冷冰冰的人
造化弄人
人生真的很无常
珍惜在身旁的人
关心他们
照顾他们
不然
后 悔 莫 及
Friday, January 13, 2012
2011年
虽然已经进入2012年的第二个星期了，可是还是觉得应该回忆一下2011年……
学记
2011年，影响我最大的改变莫过于学记。
因为学记，我再也不是成天呆在家里的宅女，正确点来说，应该是我接触了外面更辽阔的世界，不再是活在我的空间里。
因为学记，我认识到来自不同地区的人。有时候会在想，学记队里有这么多的人，又来自不同地区，可是为什么却能培养如此深厚的感情？？相反的，那些天天在身边的，和他们的友情却怎么好像很脆弱？？
我也明白一个道理，有时候成天呆在你身边的并不是最了解你的那一个，而那个许久才跟你见一次面的却能够察觉到你那微微的变化。
学记队就是这样的奇妙……
学记队就是有那种家的感觉……窝心……
英语戏剧班 drama
中一的时候，就常常看到学长们加入drama，然后又赢很多奖项，是我们羡慕的一群。
中四时，终于加入了drama。以前看前辈们准备时都很忙，不过还是不管那么多，心想加入了再说，毕竟我也想了四年。如果再不加入，恐怕就没机会了。
虽然我比较偏向负责背景布条、道具等东西，并不是饰演什么重要的角色，不过还是学到了很多东西……
我们15人加上steve、jordan、vijay 就开始了我们的战斗。目标当然是区赛冠军、州赛冠军然后就进入国赛……
不过，我们的梦在得到州赛亚军后，就结束了，彻底结束了……
或许那对我们来说是个解脱吧！
从年头开始就一直忙着drama的东西，每个人都放下手中的工作，就是要把最完美的表演呈现出来……然后每个人开始埋怨。
曾经，我们也跌到谷底，然后爬起来，继续我们的梦……
曾经，我们一起流泪、一起哭诉、一起抱怨，然后再振作起来，继续我们的梦……
曾经，我们一起旷课、一起说老师坏话、一起去吃东西，一起做许多疯狂的事情……
虽然我们止步州赛，不过至少在我们眼里，我们都是棒的……
学长
曾经有那么一段时间，对它是失望的。
领导层问题。
怀疑自己的实力、质疑自己的实力……
不管怎样，总之就是失望……
然后很想放开一切，还自己自由……
不过还是做不到，真想撞墙死了算了……
到目前为止，还是那句话，失望。
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
2011年最重要的那些都说了，剩下的就是芝麻绿豆的小事，不想说。
总结来说，2011年有喜有悲，有笑有泪……
新的一年，新的开始， 加油！
学记
2011年，影响我最大的改变莫过于学记。
因为学记，我再也不是成天呆在家里的宅女，正确点来说，应该是我接触了外面更辽阔的世界，不再是活在我的空间里。
因为学记，我认识到来自不同地区的人。有时候会在想，学记队里有这么多的人，又来自不同地区，可是为什么却能培养如此深厚的感情？？相反的，那些天天在身边的，和他们的友情却怎么好像很脆弱？？
我也明白一个道理，有时候成天呆在你身边的并不是最了解你的那一个，而那个许久才跟你见一次面的却能够察觉到你那微微的变化。
学记队就是这样的奇妙……
学记队就是有那种家的感觉……窝心……
英语戏剧班 drama
中一的时候，就常常看到学长们加入drama，然后又赢很多奖项，是我们羡慕的一群。
中四时，终于加入了drama。以前看前辈们准备时都很忙，不过还是不管那么多，心想加入了再说，毕竟我也想了四年。如果再不加入，恐怕就没机会了。
虽然我比较偏向负责背景布条、道具等东西，并不是饰演什么重要的角色，不过还是学到了很多东西……
我们15人加上steve、jordan、vijay 就开始了我们的战斗。目标当然是区赛冠军、州赛冠军然后就进入国赛……
不过，我们的梦在得到州赛亚军后，就结束了，彻底结束了……
或许那对我们来说是个解脱吧！
从年头开始就一直忙着drama的东西，每个人都放下手中的工作，就是要把最完美的表演呈现出来……然后每个人开始埋怨。
曾经，我们也跌到谷底，然后爬起来，继续我们的梦……
曾经，我们一起流泪、一起哭诉、一起抱怨，然后再振作起来，继续我们的梦……
曾经，我们一起旷课、一起说老师坏话、一起去吃东西，一起做许多疯狂的事情……
虽然我们止步州赛，不过至少在我们眼里，我们都是棒的……
学长
曾经有那么一段时间，对它是失望的。
领导层问题。
怀疑自己的实力、质疑自己的实力……
不管怎样，总之就是失望……
然后很想放开一切，还自己自由……
不过还是做不到，真想撞墙死了算了……
到目前为止，还是那句话，失望。
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
2011年最重要的那些都说了，剩下的就是芝麻绿豆的小事，不想说。
总结来说，2011年有喜有悲，有笑有泪……
新的一年，新的开始， 加油！
Monday, August 29, 2011
聚
缘.圆.员
本来已缺席这活动了
不过维慎联络我
才试着去说服父母让我参加
这次出席活动的人数
只有几十人
不过
人少少的
反而更容易联谊
一开始
听着你们的对话
是有点不开心
而且觉得有点难受
但绝对不是因为活动的问题
就是提不起劲去玩
慢慢的
才进入状态
做了一个笑脸的灯笼
原因是想要自己能够笑一笑
忘掉忧愁
或许作品有点难看
不过都是我亲手制作的
而且有点鼓励的元素
提醒自己“笑一笑，没烦恼”
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| 笑一笑，世界更美好 |
有时
会觉得自己很没有存在感
或许是只有在挚友面前
我才能完全放开自己
有时
会觉得很自卑
自卑什么？
我不懂
会觉得很孤独
总是成为一大班人
漠视的那个
走在后头的那个
或许自己的沉默不语
让人觉得我很难相处吧
也不知怎的
最近有点沉默
长大了
烦人的事情也跟着越来越多
铭丰看到我
就先问我：
“苏靖雯，你做么这样伤心？”
“没有啊，我哪里有？”
“还说没有，再将多两句眼泪就要留下来了……”
没错
我那时是有点悲
悲什么？
我真的不懂
不过很想懂……
但是铭丰的几句问候
加上秋明的关心
我感觉好多了
至少有人在乎我
有时
真的很讽刺
身边的朋友
不曾察觉到的
可是
几个月才见一面的朋友却察觉到
真的很讽刺
过后的活动呢
不好意思
一一省略
晚上
提灯笼游街
好久没这样子玩了
再加上
艳雯和几个学海之友的加入
感觉很好
真的很好
隔天
我被整了
不，不该说被整了
因为那算是活动之一
当我从电话里听到那两声尖叫声时
两声嘶破喉咙的尖叫声
我真的呆了
脑海里就出现很多负面的画面
我在想
如果恩乐就这样不见了
或发生什么事的话
我这一辈子不会好过
于是
水龙头开了
第一个失控的是我
完全无法冷静下来
看到接下来活动的提示纸
虽然有点怀疑
可是脑袋就是空空的
盲目地在那里乱走
虽然知道这不过是个活动
不过找到恩乐时
我的眼泪
还是像水龙头这样
关不紧
一触到开关
就会流了
我的组还蛮幸运的
因为很轻易的
工委就让我们“领回”恩乐
看到哲章
因为自己的干妹还在被“囚禁”
而静静地坐在角落
留着眼泪
责怪自己没有尽干哥的本分
等着亦韵给他带来好消息
那种感觉
窝心的感觉
就是不懂
明知是个游戏
为什么还会这样激动？
因为……患难见真情
我喜欢学记
是因为
我在这里体会到很多
有人会问“学记真的这样好玩吗？”
“不是好玩，而是我们彼此之间的感情”
是的，
我们学记之间的感情
那种感情在外头是无法体会到的
所以
我很珍惜
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| 离开前的大合照 |
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| 以蜡烛写出xueji（学记） |
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| 走走走，提灯笼 |
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| 我和艳雯 =) |
Saturday, August 20, 2011
blablabla~~~
well
i found that this few weeks
i am quiet
or ppl will just label
"you are emo."
when i heard tat
i think about it
yea
maybe u are right
i am emo
i also don't know why
i juz feels like bo mood
don't want to talk anything
and juz leave them
be alone
seriously
i want to be happy
i miss the time all of us were together
and
you and me are together
i miss you
ok
other than that
there's still many problems....
first
what i expected from u guys all gone
maybe there's still have chance
but for me
the percentage of achieve it is only 30%
u guys are doubt at my ability
and that hurt me
it takes a long time for me to recover
i persuade myself
i tell myself
"you are the best, it's their lost they didn't choose you."
you may say
"it's ok.you still have chance."
i knew that
but it's hard for me to continue fight for it
as u have already doubt at me....
i found that it is really really hard for me....
the second thing
i already tried my best to do everything
what u do is juz observed and said
" hey , why u didn't do tis and do that ? "
" hey , why u didn't go for ur duty ?"
u never gone through it
u never know what is the problem
so pls think for others
nt everyone manage to do that
i swear i had already sacrifice to carry out my job
huhuhu...
when i realise that i cant go to there
i really really dissapointed and sad
i am angry at myself
why i didn't fight for it at first
and juz follow my friends
if they absent then i'll be absent
what's wrong with me ???
u're live for urself but NOT for others
why don't u do what u want to do???
and nw u r regret
maybe only like that
then only we called it as 'life'
anything else in my mind ???
okay
i wish i could go and meet you
and chat with you the whole night
and be your listener
and bla bla bla..do everything with you
as long as u r there.....
write until here..
and you read until here...
then u will only know why the title is blablabla
because i want to bla out everything in my mind.....
* p/s : although i know u r nt using blogger and it's impossible for u to view it but i still hope u
could read it and know the one i mean is YOU
i found that this few weeks
i am quiet
or ppl will just label
"you are emo."
when i heard tat
i think about it
yea
maybe u are right
i am emo
i also don't know why
i juz feels like bo mood
don't want to talk anything
and juz leave them
be alone
seriously
i want to be happy
i miss the time all of us were together
and
you and me are together
i miss you
ok
other than that
there's still many problems....
first
what i expected from u guys all gone
maybe there's still have chance
but for me
the percentage of achieve it is only 30%
u guys are doubt at my ability
and that hurt me
it takes a long time for me to recover
i persuade myself
i tell myself
"you are the best, it's their lost they didn't choose you."
you may say
"it's ok.you still have chance."
i knew that
but it's hard for me to continue fight for it
as u have already doubt at me....
i found that it is really really hard for me....
the second thing
i already tried my best to do everything
what u do is juz observed and said
" hey , why u didn't do tis and do that ? "
" hey , why u didn't go for ur duty ?"
u never gone through it
u never know what is the problem
so pls think for others
nt everyone manage to do that
i swear i had already sacrifice to carry out my job
huhuhu...
when i realise that i cant go to there
i really really dissapointed and sad
i am angry at myself
why i didn't fight for it at first
and juz follow my friends
if they absent then i'll be absent
what's wrong with me ???
u're live for urself but NOT for others
why don't u do what u want to do???
and nw u r regret
maybe only like that
then only we called it as 'life'
anything else in my mind ???
okay
i wish i could go and meet you
and chat with you the whole night
and be your listener
and bla bla bla..do everything with you
as long as u r there.....
write until here..
and you read until here...
then u will only know why the title is blablabla
because i want to bla out everything in my mind.....
* p/s : although i know u r nt using blogger and it's impossible for u to view it but i still hope u
could read it and know the one i mean is YOU
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
the day i lose 2 things ='(
state level of english drama competition 2011i really really shocked when i heard the mc announced that
nt only me...is everyone of us...
hw i wish tat time is juz a dream.....
but it's real..
we have to accept it.....
at first
i try to comfort myself....
control myself nt to cry....
tell myself tat at least we gt it...
but
i CANNOT make it...
i cried at last.......
cried out loud.....
once i think we had spent our time
we had sacrifice everything
we had put a lot of effort
but
we still lose
i really really sad n disappointed.....
i cried
because
i lose 2 things at the same time....
2 main things in my student life right now...
even now when i think about it..
my tears still rolling in my eyes....
anyway
special thanks to :
steve ooi
vijay
jordan
joyce
=) smile is the best way to solve everything
nt only me...is everyone of us...
hw i wish tat time is juz a dream.....
but it's real..
we have to accept it.....
at first
i try to comfort myself....
control myself nt to cry....
tell myself tat at least we gt it...
but
i CANNOT make it...
i cried at last.......
cried out loud.....
once i think we had spent our time
we had sacrifice everything
we had put a lot of effort
but
we still lose
i really really sad n disappointed.....
i cried
because
i lose 2 things at the same time....
2 main things in my student life right now...
even now when i think about it..
my tears still rolling in my eyes....
anyway
special thanks to :
steve ooi
vijay
jordan
joyce
=) smile is the best way to solve everything
Sunday, May 15, 2011
dRamA
12th may 2011
a memorable day for u n me
of course for smki drama team
our FIRST comes back
at the moment
the mc announce that second is smsm
all of us lost controlled
shouting yelling crying
not for our lose
but for our win
ibrahim nombor 1
ibrahim nombor 1
ibrahim nombor 1
the things still come to my mind
we were practice hard and hard for the past five weeks
and also getting scold by the teachers
of course some of us including me really tak syok sometimes
but anyway when the result come out
we really appreciate them
seriously
at first when i joined this team
it's not like a team
but like ourselves
a group here
and a group there
but
as the competiton day come nearer
we started to be a team
everyone started to tease each other
just like what we do right now
but don't get confused
we are not really want to hurt or tease someone
it's just joking to make ourselves CHILLAX
one more thing
this year drama team's nickname is CHILLAX TEAM
chill + relax = CHILLAX
a memorable day for u n me
of course for smki drama team
our FIRST comes back
at the moment
the mc announce that second is smsm
all of us lost controlled
shouting yelling crying
not for our lose
but for our win
ibrahim nombor 1
ibrahim nombor 1
ibrahim nombor 1
the things still come to my mind
we were practice hard and hard for the past five weeks
and also getting scold by the teachers
of course some of us including me really tak syok sometimes
but anyway when the result come out
we really appreciate them
seriously
at first when i joined this team
it's not like a team
but like ourselves
a group here
and a group there
but
as the competiton day come nearer
we started to be a team
everyone started to tease each other
just like what we do right now
but don't get confused
we are not really want to hurt or tease someone
it's just joking to make ourselves CHILLAX
one more thing
this year drama team's nickname is CHILLAX TEAM
chill + relax = CHILLAX
anyway
we still have a long way to go
to achieve our target
to achieve our dream
p/s : special thanks to steve and jordan too
we still have a long way to go
to achieve our target
to achieve our dream
p/s : special thanks to steve and jordan too
:)
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